One Doc Visit Down...

...and prayerfully just one more to go! We returned home just a little bit ago from our pediatrician and both of our babies are sleeping:) Emily was so well-behaved and passed out in the car on the way home. Timothy was probably traumatized from his shots and he followed his big sister's lead into siesta-ville:)

There isn't much to update on. I sure wish I had more info. but I just don't at this point. Timothy's neurology appt. is scheduled for Nov. 21 at Vanderbilt, which feels like years from now. I asked if we should keep the appt. and his dr. said that we should. He said that the shaking/tremors are more than he would see in a newborn and for sure more than he would see in a 2 month old. That combined with what we have told him brings on the need for the ultrasound. I asked what they would be looking for specifically and he said a couple of things. He did say that the ultrasound is not the best scan but that it doesn't involve radiation and it can show some things that they would be looking for. We did find out who Timothy's neurologist is and also found out that he is the chief of Pediatric Neurology at Vandy. We are encouraged about that! So, either we are just being wonderfully cautious and proactive or something is going on and they will quickly figure out what it is.

Obviously our prayer is that Timothy will just simply outgrow whatever is causing the shaking and that it will just stop...soon! But, again we trust in our Father who sees our every need and desires for us to come before him and cast every fear and worry and care upon Him. I am thankful that what is going on with Timothy is not a burden that me or Derek has to carry. I told a dear friend today that I don't even know how to process what is going on. I left the dr. today and was totally fine and then when I was 3 minutes from home I began sobbing. I began thinking about how God must have felt to see His son in such pain and how he knows how I feel and all of my fears even if I can't put words to them! The same friend gave me this word from Lamentations, "Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail." I am choosing to believe this and walk in this truth. God knows me and my heart and knows EXACTLY how I feel and every thought that I have. He knows it and He is compassionate towards me! That does give me hope!

So I ask you to pray. I just typed a whole paragraph of what to pray for and erased it all, because honestly I don't even know what to pray for. This could all be absolutely nothing, so what do I pray? Or there could be a reason for the tremors, in which case I will pray for absolute healing. The problem is that until we have an idea of what is going on, I don't really know what to pray. And maybe that is just it, maybe I just need to talk to God and ask for our minds and hearts to be ready to receive whatever is to come and to walk in peace over the next month.

We will continue to keep everyone updated through the blog. Thank you all so much for praying for Timothy and for checking on us. It means so much to know that SO many people are praying for our son! We love you all!

***And on a funny side note, I started this entry about 2 hours ago...my sleeping little girl....well let's just say that her 2o minute siesta in the car rejuvenated her just enough to not be able to go back to sleep! Lovely! As D just told me on the phone, she should be really fun to be around this evening!:) haha! I made her "rest" in her room anyway, but she has come out with important needs such as her gingerbread sticker from the doc's office is now crooked on her shirt and she has an invisible cut on her finger that is requiring Neosporin and a Band-Aid. And my personal favorite was when she came out and was wearing a monkey hat and wanted to show me that she got it on all by herself. Like I said, all crucial needs. Oh well, at least Timothy slept!:)***